Okay so today I had somewhat of a not-so-good day. It felt like no-one noticed me, like no-one wanted to talk to me. And then I wondered, what if all of this was fictional? What if all of this was imaginary?
My thoughts only became deeper as I became more curious. What if, something horrible happened and I no longer existed, but that I didn’t realise it and I was continuing to live life like it was normal? And that all these conversations and memories that I share with my friends are just a part of my imagination? Wouldn’t it be weird? I’d be sitting there, talking with my friends as if it were really happening, but in my friend’s eyes.. I wouldn’t be sitting there at all. I wouldn’t even be there. It’d just be nothingness, air. I guess this shows how powerful one’s imagination can really be.
It’s as if.. you’re only thinking of the things that you would want to occur. Heartbreak, happiness, isolation.. You’re feeling all of these emotions and experiencing these events, but at the expense of your imagination. You may think that you’re part of the conversation, that you’re part of that mosh pit, that you’re part of that photo. But really, you’re not. You’re not there to have your friend ask you how your day was, you’re not the one crowd surfing, and you’re not there with your arms cheerfully wrapped around your best friend.
For some odd reason, this whole idea of whether you’re really existent VS your imagination reminded me of The Truman Show, a movie with Jim Carrey in it. I won’t go into details, but it’s similar in the sense that eventually, you’ll figure it all out and realise that what you expected isn’t exactly reality.
I haven’t gone into such depth of thought in such a long time, so today was really an eye-opener for me yet it also frightened me a little because of the self-realisation of the true power of an individual’s imagination.
Wouldn’t this scare you? If you actually think about it, we can think about things like this and so much more. It’s such a fascination, but it also allows to know more about your thought process, and how you perceive things in life. Whether you base your perception on fact VS fiction, it’s only up to you to decide that.
*I’m in no way perceiving this whole idea from a pessimistic POV, or that I was sad cos I was a loner because no-one talked to me. It was just a ‘what if?’ moment.
At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.
I was looking in the mirror before and realised that I somehow looked different. omg I’m old! 19 years today! I think I actually look 19 now, if that’s even possible :s
thank you to everyone for the birthday wishes. I didn’t have much of an expectation for today, but it went quite well. and I probably wished for something that will most likely never happen… but I can only hope.
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fucking.. i thought i suddenly became mega popular on tumblr.. but then it was just 6 of these messages.
A challenging situation over which you have little or no control could erupt today, Taurus. But there is good news; those who oppose you have little chance of coming out on top. Be careful how you handle yourself today; rumors or accusations could actually cause problems in an important relationship.
I’ll be leaving for Sydney tomorrow, but only for the weekend so it won’t be that long. Til then, I won’t be able to post anything cos I won’t have access to the net.
Not really in the mood to go, but hopefully I’ll have somewhat of a good time there. I need to clear my head of all these thoughts that have accumulated and basically made me go insane. Take care and be safe, followers.
Today is a day where you may feel like the cat that ate the canary, Taurus. When it comes to love, this will make you feel like you’ve gotten away with something. The truth is that while you may have proven your point, and are even committed to your belief you’ve expressed so strongly, the reality of the situation may speak otherwise. This is a case where your stubbornness is taking precedence, and you may need to consider another perspective if you expect to advance with love. Good news is around the corner for you in your romantic affairs, but only if you stop clinging to this one issue you are so committed to.